It has been a long time... - from friendster blog (2006.03.03)

My gosh, it has been such a long time since I last posted something here! I actually drafted something out but anyway I think I've forgotten the things I was thinking of typing there.... Anyway, I just want to tell of the last week or rather my two weeks of hell in school... =D

• ~It all just started from the week of February 20-24, where I had tons of long tests, one big requirement for chem and another big requirement for values education. As much as I don't fancy cramming style, I guess I just got so used to it and I've brought it to my second year in highschool. It can clearly be seen as our YMSAT (Youth, Math, Science and Technology) week passed by and as our group (a group of 9 people) crammed a 10-minute flash of the series LOST. It was quite difficult and rather disappointing! Difficult to say because we just had to watch the whole season 1 of the LOST series (45 minutes each episode) and some of us barely knew how to handle Macromedia Flash, which is what I really hate right now. Disappointing because we had plans and all, we even went to my house just to try it out, used around 2 computers and 2 more laptops and used one whole room for a big overnight to try and finish it. Another thing was that we again went to my house to finish it and well we noticed that we really didn't do anything so much, even if this time we had 2 computers and 3 laptops, until only Steph and I were left to do part of the flash. I guess we were better off than one of our class' group, but personally, it was disappointing. What really took a big effect was when we presented it and we weren't allowed to change, even though we had a 5-10% deduction, just because we weren't in time (I don't even know what the right time was). Anyway, that YMSAT week was just so tiring as we spent the Monday trying to fix the flash, then Tuesday getting ready to present it, Wednesday having the Bio Quiz Bee... uhm one of the things I don't think I'd ever want to do.. lol.. but it was fun when we were in the stage laughing because we don't know a thing about the question. But somehow it really made me think about Bio a lot.. I mean I like the subject, just as any other subject, except ehem...a few others, but somehow I barely know anything about it... memorization doesn't take me that far in the quiz bee, but I think reading more books does, and I'm no fan of reading books...just when they're required do I waste time reading them. But understanding takes me as far as I would want to reach and I don't get it but it helps me on my quizzes... well notes add to the things I remember, but I think logic really helps a lot, even in Computer Science. The afternoon of wednesday was REALLY boring... I went to school for the Bio quiz bee but I didn't expect for us to waste our afternoon sitting in the gazebo doing nothing... But anyway I got to spend a whole lot of time with people I don't usually hang out with. I got to appreciate Camia a whole lot more, and I've really learned to like the people in it, even if I don't know them much. Then Thursday... uhm we had a Math Intersection in the morning and well I came to school just for that, but I didn't expect that much out of what I could do because I can't really tell you I love math or anything but somehow when I understand it, I do better...I only wish it happens every time! Just before the Math Intersection, I got to talk to Angelica again...I miss her and well the letters she wrote on February 14 really hit the spot that I wasn't that good of a "friend" to her, or I wasn't a friend at all...I dunno why I didn't realize it but somehow I just wanted to spend my last quarter much better and well the people in Camia really help a lot for me to do much better so I guess I somehow took many of my friends for granted and spent more time with Camia. Then on the time of the Math Intersection... well I was just in the group division and not in the individual.. and I was really thankful for not being in the individual round! Fortunately, our group won first place.. I guess because of the last question, wherein we all had the same answers with us. Friday was utterly boring because it was the awarding ceremony and well we didn't really win anything for our physics requirement..which was an air sled. Oh yeah and the last day was good because I got to spend time with the Pisay YFC again, it was really fun talking to them...although I don't know much about them!
  
• ~Oh okay I got a little bit too far there, anyway the week of February 20... hmm... I really can't remember that much but I knew we were cramming that one-day (I hope my teacher won't know) commercial that we were supposed to do on the 18th but only my two classmates went (we were 10 in the group). I understand as much as the part that some of my classmates were externs but somehow I didn't like the fact that miscommunication hindered some to come and help us out. I feel guilty for making Marvin come to the meeting because we really didn't do anything and they ended up watching TV...weird. Anyway, that too was held in my house.. ehehe.. I think I've abused my right to my house..lol.. but it's fine as long as it's for the benefit of my.. umm near future! =D I don't know exactly why my fourth quarter hasn't been going as much as I would want it to.. I'm quite disappointed... and well... that may be why I really really really want the quarter to end already. And yes the exams week is coming up.. I'm actually writing this to encourage me to do my fil project, which I'll be describing in a while... Anyway.. the valed thing wasn't really good... as in... uhhm I don't know I think it's my fault in some freaky way, or rather in an indirect way.
  
• ~My Chem portfolio, I mean I don't think I deserved my last grade in the Chem Portfolio because it really didn't look like a good "artistic" work. I didn't understand it that much but I really tried to make the content much better, even if it didn't look as good as I think I could do. I actually crammed it on the 23rd but then when I woke up in the morning Steph texted me saying there was no class and I kind of disliked it because I crammed the Chem Portfolio the night before. Anyway the whole day was... "wasted" somewhat.. cause in the morning I ended up being an addict of "Paradise Kiss" oh.. the manga I really really love.. the clothes in the manga are soooo pretty =D then I found out there was a TV episode, and well I'm still struggling to prevent myself from viewing it, but don't worry it is just as long as 12 episodes with 30 minutes each episode, and well...I'm still trying to download it! ...=(
  
• ~The long tests... well it wasn't really pretty, I mean I can't remember the subjects well but I can say it isn't that good. Oh yeah I totally disliked the filipino long test... I would want to learn more, but I guess cramming doesn't seem that much as a good option when learning the grammar part. Oh well! Anyway please wish me good luck for the perio!!! I really need it.. sooo badly... =D
  
• ~Okay, uhm I really don't want to discuss it but anyway, I really don't like the fact that I think I "will fail" tech skills... I mean.. I tried to make a vehicle that will run on motor and a 9-volts battery with a switch and that will run from a 1-meter high table and run a course that will test the ability to protect an egg. It kind of pisses me out that I can't do anything worthwhile in that subject and that I wasn't able to do as I wanted to. Hmm.. I think I feel better... much, much. But anyway, if I fail that I look forward to a "bet" I made with Jose for 50 Pesos..lol.. it's not like I want to fail but as he said people get to win at something when they fail-->they get money even though they fail.. =D Hmm... but if ever I fail, I think it won't look good, uhm yeah... I'll get depressed...most likely, but it doesn't matter, I don't know if I'll get over it but life goes on.
  
• ~The last week of formal classes, well I really didn't like the fact that I totally ruined my whole speech for english, so I won't count on that for a change in my grades.. hmm I just count on Chem (although I really want to get a really high grade, as in 2 steps up I hope =D.."asa"), then I hope my algebra goes up.. I really hope so. Then my geom, I want it to go up one notch... so that I'll pull up my tech skills, english, and drafting grade. I also want to get a much better grade in values education but I don't know about my perio... it gets tough in the perio! Oh yeah I'm off topic again... anyway, I liked the fact that "I didn't FAIL GEOM" on my last long test.. I'm sorry to blurt that out but it really feels good...somehow... it's because I really do an awful job in my long tests and well... right now I learned to appreciate it a whole lot more! Then I liked the fact that I just failed on one multiple choice question for the Chem long test, but then since our teacher lowered the perfect score, I'm over perfect =D. Hmm... I liked P.E. because I might get an 1.0 just because I wore my uniform all throughout the P.E. days and we didn't have a practical exam!! wee! hmm... I really get mixed feelings right now, I dunno if I'm happy because of some school things, or upset because of some other school things, excited for the summer, or sad because I won't be able to see Camia..as Camia '08: my classmates, worried because of the perio, or relieved because it's the last perio!! But somehow... I'm happy, I dunno why.. maybe texting lara and rodz really helped me, I mean rodz sent sweet quotes that kind of made me feel better, then lara texted me when I just wanted to know how she was doing. =D
  
• ~Hmm.. well last of the school stuff, well I'm supposed to like make this comics that I kind of wanted to make in the traditional manga format (reading from right to left) and well I wish myself luck because I'll really be needing it! So much really... =D Hmm... then I kind of like need to do well in my perio.. which starts monday until thursday! then clearance week stuff.. I think we're supposed to go out as Camia =D I hope we do! I've been thinking though, I mean since watching Paradise Kiss and seeing Yukari trying to find herself in the crowd and experiencing the world outside high school... I kind of want to find myself too.. and I don't know if studying so hard will be so usefull as I strive to ask myself.. why do I do what I do? So maybe trying to find myself lies on trying to answer the question why I do what I do... what I do is like studying, watching anime or simply why I live like this? (I'm not saying I live in such an awful way, and I'm not complaining but I'm simply asking why I live as I live)
  
• ~Okay, off school topics then... uhm I'm still going to post on of my old draft posts for the 1st-2nd week of february because it's important that I post my "favorite manga"...as in really! It was a stroke of pure luck! or rather destiny that I chose that manga and bought it, now I dunno if I could complete all the volumes but it made me realize a few goals in my summer! Well right now I'm actually into Paradise Kiss, although it's quite hard to download... or it just takes too long =D but I really like Yukari and George as a couple, and Hiroyuki as a character...lol.. =D As of now I'm in episode 8 of 12 and well I really like the fact that Yukari tries to find herself and sometimes I too get enough of George's character that is hard to understand..hehe. hmm... then... uhm... I dunno, I mean I watch a lot of anime nowadays, which includes Inuyasha (I really can't get the story...the end i mean), Card Captor Sakura (I actually want to know how the end was as it was when I saw it), Curious Play (OMG.... memories...), Absolute Boy (sometimes... it's interesting..somehow), Emma-A Victorian Romance (omg.. it's really sweet... lol)... and well I can't remember much but inuyasha everyday + curious play everyday + card captor every wed-fri = around 1 hr and 30 mins in front of the TV!! then detective conan is coming up again.. wee. Lol.. but I still have exams, so I guess I better study well =D
  

~till next time, I think my brother's here already... =P Oops he's not here yet but he will be... and besides I have to finish photoediting stuff... =D
~With every step I make and every word I say
the journey takes me as far as each day
for me to be able to see through the test
and do as I can to make it the best...
~sorry panget.. anyway, it kind of just popped out of my mind..lol =D anyway... Take Care, God Bless and Pray Always!